Everything is Weird and No Place is Left to Go

coolcorpse: say how old are you?
enigma: Old enough.
coolcorpse: say what's your gender? m or f?
coolcorpse: say sorry.
coolcorpse: I don't mean to keep typing "say."
enigma: What do you think my gender is? :S
coolcorpse: Too much nudding.
enigma: '
coolcorpse: I mean mudding.
coolcorpse: I'm gonna check the dial-in conection
coolcorpse: say brb


He went and never came back...

THAT, ladies and gentlemen, was a part of a talk I had with someone while playing Yahoo Chess. As you may note, the guy seems to have gotten into the pattern where he has to type "say" before saying something and "look" before he can see. Next thing he'll inarticulate "emote" every time he takes breath. Emote inhale, Emote exhale!

I'm starting to get uninterested of the Net. The question is, where do I go now? Where's the next wave? The thing is, I don't think I can push this thing much further. There's nothing else to do; just much, much, much more of what I've already done. Anywhere I go now is a second trip.

It's weird. The Net used to seem so big. No limits. Everlasting variety. It doesn't seem that gigantic to me now. I log in and think, where to? Back to Forums? Back to blogging? Back to chatting? Messenger? Anyone? ... etc.

Been there, done that. It's not adequate anymore. It's overwhelming. It's boring. I can feel it topping out. And it's sad, because I love the Net! I loved being able to drift away into chatting rooms and talk to people from different regions. I loved the spirit of it, and how much people value liberty on the net. I loved the speed, the lightness.

Or maybe, that's the part I hate. I can switch this whole world off from my life. I can walk away from it and come back the next night, or the night after that, or a week or a month or a year later and find pretty much the same thing. I don't know how content I am in this casual space anymore.

No consequences.

There is something sparkling and brilliant about the Net. There is also something lonesome and horrible about it. I don't regret stumbling in, but thank God I can opt out.

The sun will be up in a little less than one hour or so, which is:

a) a few more thousand posts yet to read from my fellow bloggers.
b) two dozen Forums.
c) a couple of mp3 websites to check, or
d) doing the alfajer prayer.

At this point, "d" seems like the most thrilling option...

/enigma

Free (Wi-Fi) Access Offered at Qtel Hotspots

Source ::: The Peninsula

Doha: Residents and visitors to Qatar can now access high-speed wireless Internet at selected locations free of cost following the soft opening of Qatar Telecom's Wireless Fidelity (WiFi) service branded Qtel Hotspot. The free access offer is valid for a limited period only after which Qtel Hotspot will be commercially launched.

Khalil Ebrahim Al Emadi, Executive Director, Wireline Services at the company, said: "Qte's broadband strategy is to make our customers a part of the growing global WiFi community and give them the best of what we have to offer in Internet services whether at home or at work. Our WiFi service provides freedom, flexibility, reliability and great value for our customers and by offering them this dynamic service free for a limited period, we are giving them an opportunity to sample one of the many exciting products and services we will be launching very soon."

The service, in its introductory phase, is available at all major hotels in Doha, select restaurants and coffee shops. Among the places where people may experience WiFi Internet access free are the InterContinental Doha, Al Merweb Hotel, both the branches of the Eli France Café at Salwa Road and the City Center, La Maison Du Café on Salwa Road and Royal Plaza, Le Notre, Grand Café, Crepaway and Mint Café.

Customers should look for a special logo or notice announcing that free WiFi access is available at the outlets and request for a user name and password from the hotspot location personnel.

"WiFi is fast gaining popularity, especially with everyday Internet users and people from the business and student communities who frequent restaurants, hotel lobbies and coffee shops. By setting up hotspots at these locations, we are also offering businesses a chance to provide advanced service and to attract more customers," he added.

Thank you Q-tel!! *a sentence I never thought I'd say.*


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Just a Bit of Sorrow

Terrified to wake up not knowing who I may face today,
So afraid to run off the room… so there on my bed I lay.

.......

Scared to open up my eyes in terror of who I may see,
there’s only one being I trust now, that one being is me.

.......

I toddled down the stairway of my vacant dark home,
Everyday became the same, and I’m all alone.
I can’t gaze at the outer surface, I can’t anymore see,
I just don't know what the hell is wrong with me.

.......

I sit out of the sun, wondering what’s going on,
with all sensations… I feel vanished or gone.
My mind's eye wish to know what lives outside;
it’s so undue for everything I hold, to hide.

.......

Though I can’t stand the wounds people cause,
And I can’t stand all this pain
though I'm sick of everyone being fake,
Sick of the amount of hurt I still have left to take
I won't let this happen to me again.

.......

Today I will stand up and wipe away the tears
Today I will rub out all the hurt and fears
Today is another new page
Waiting to be filled with fury and rage

.......

Fight is the only word that charms in my head
So I'll fight even though by now...

I'm dead.

Tagged by...

AND

To answer the following:

1. What does 'love' mean to you?

At this moment, it means a knife caught in my heart that no matter what I do I can't drag out.

But on a broad note...

love is what completes me. That's all I'd say.

2. What does "marriage" mean to you?

It's a life-time commitment. It's a dream that will come to reality, one day… inshallah.

3. Do you believe in 'love at first sight'?

I wouldn't call it love. It's a physical attraction. You can't love someone just by a fleeting look. It's mostly incorrect to suppose so… because love doesn't come out of sudden. Love is a combination of feelings attached together which grow through time. Hmm, just ask yourself, what approach would one have at first sight?

Exactly! Attraction; no more no less.

4. How many children would you like?

As much as God would bless me to have.

5. If given the opportunity, what is that one song you would sing for me on wedding day?

What dreams are made of...

6. What is your favorite holiday destination?

Undecided.

7. What are three qualities you would look for in a woman?

After 'Religious' come Simple, Patient, and Compassionate. Beauty is the last thing I look for.

8. What are the three qualities and three bad habits that you have?

Qualities: you tell me what they are...

Bad habits:

1. I don't get out from my cave frequently
2. I shy
3. I have major problems with sleeping

9. Where do you see yourself in 10 years time?

I don't know where the course of my future leads. For every day there is something new that will either shove me up a bit or put me down a byte... Honestly I can't see myself in tomorrow, how do you expect me to tell what's after 10 years...

Only God knows...

The Erotic Dreams of Enigma; Totally Faked!

Alright everyone after my worm greetings to all,,

I'm very upset.

I checked mp3search.ru today to find some songs and I got shocked! I mean, how in God's name do people steal the originality of my favorite band, and no one says anything?!!! There is nothing called "Erotic Dreams" album for Enigma! o_O Somebody is faking and people are downloading because they think it's for the original band.

The album doesn't even come close to the quality of the original band; I felt suspecious once I heard it. It really shouldnt be under Enigma's name because they're not the ones who made it. The website refers to the album as bootleg. But you know what, I don't care! I mean look at the title! It doesn't fit with Enigma's reputation at ALL! ahh..

If anyone saw this album and wanted to buy it, don't don't don't!! We need to stop these people from stealing other's copyrighted materials. If you pay, you're encouraging this phenomenon to appear.. please don't! I mean okey, I was dump to buy it, but hey I didn't know.. but now that you read this post... You have no excuse...

DOOOON'T BUY IT!

lol. Aye this is the cover of the so stupid album:





I just wonder if there are any rules about using the name of other artists. I mean there must be some kind of restrictions about that right?

Anwayz,,

It's exactly 5:30am now.. It's been a long time I haven't slept well. My daily schedule is so messed up...

Sigh.. goodbye.


*lol that rhymes*

Somewhere I Used to Belong...

I'm not talking about where I belong in 'real' life… I'm talking about the 'online' one.

On my online occurrence, I've been into many forums, discussion websites, and many others to reckon. I had fun on some, while I learnt some perspectives of life on others. But there was this one forum that I really felt I belong to; to the extent that I treasured it as my second family.

Every single member in that forum meant something to me - I'm not kidding! Some of them were more than just online friends. They were like brothers and sisters. I felt that every one cared for each other. Every one was very polite... Every one was just being him/herself... and so I couldn't help but like the quality at hand. And indeed, it was such a great experience.

Sadly though, it's temporarily closed... for 3 or maybe 4 months now.

I really miss it. I miss all the people I knew there. I even had a phase for a time where it was inflexible to live the day without hearing about them. Right now I don't go to other forums; often for the reason that it reminds me of the one I used to be in...

Is this some sort of addiction? Maybe, but if it is, then I'm convinced it's the right kind of it. I just supplicate that the admin of the forum hear my voice somehow and kindly consider bringing it back... Even though I am not sure will I see my fellows there again, at least I will be seated here with hopes to read anything about them.

I pray they're alright and living a happy life...

A question to all the people who post in forums, what would you do if you knew one day that the forum you daily visit is shut down?

I leave you to comment... :(